The greatest blessing through all of this is my daughter London. When I’m around her, it’s hard to be sad because she is so full of joy and love. As hard as this has been on me physically and emotionally I know that God has still blessed me with so much.
- I have an amazing family and support system
- While this process can pull married couples apart my husband and I have pulled together
- God has already blessed me with an amazing and healthy daughter
- I can afford the treatments and I can afford to keep trying if I want
- My job allows me the flexibility to make it to the never ending doctor appointments.
- I’m not sensitive to the drugs. Many women who undergo IVF have horrible side effects from the drugs and/or a really tough time recovering from the retrieval.
- Everything else in my life is wonderful. God has provided.
And these are the things I hold onto when my outlook gets dark. I think about all the other things I could be going through that would be so much worse, and I thank God for my blessings. And I thank Him for the baby that will be coming into our family soon. I just don’t know how.
The doctor’s best guess was that the transfer hadn’t worked because the quality of our embryo was Bc. Plenty of B embryos become babies, but the chances are reduced. I asked her at what point do we go to plan B? How many times do we keep trying? We all decided on 2 more egg retrievals. We would wait and test the embryos after the 2nd retrieval (pool them together). Not only will it save us about $5000, but for me, I think I will do better emotionally if I don’t have to face a potential disappointment after the 1st one. It’s not just the news either, it’s the 7-10 days of excruciating anticipation of the news
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